In a powerful romance hailed as “heartbreaking, real, and breathtakingly beautiful” by Stacey Lynn, New York Times bestselling author A. Meredith Walters tells the story of a troubled young woman and the unforgettable guy who teaches her to live—and love—to the fullest.
She’s waiting to die. . . . Corin Thompson is paralyzed by her obsession with mortality. Having lost both of her parents, she is terrified by the idea that she too will die young, and she loses control at any sign of illness. But when Corin connects with someone who has survived a very real brush with death, she begins to see the world in a whole new way.
He’s learning to live. . . . As Corin struggles under the weight of her neuroses, Beckett Kingsley is attempting to rebuild a life that feels all too temporary. With the ever-present threat of heart failure never far from his mind, he just wants to make the most of whatever time he has left. And that means pursuing the girl he never expected to find.
Together, Corin and Beckett finally learn to let go of their fears and take solace in everyday pleasures. Who knows what the future holds? After all, nothing lasts forever—the only promise they have is right now.
Advance praise for Butterfly Dreams “All the feels: poignant, funny, sad, beautiful, and inspiring! Your own belly butterflies will take flight.”—New York Times bestselling author Katy Evans
“A. Meredith Walters is the author I turn to when I want to get sucked into a beautiful story that packs an emotional punch.”—New York Times bestselling author Sawyer Bennett
“Butterfly Dreams is one of the most poignant books I’ve read all year. It’s heartbreaking, real, and breathtakingly beautiful. A. Meredith Walters weaves a story that draws you in from the very first page and refuses to let you go even once it’s finished.”—Stacey Lynn, author of the Nordic Lords series
“The ending nearly killed me, but I survived. I read this book in one sitting, and what a roller coaster of a story. The author did an amazing job. . . . I found myself unable to put the book down.”—The Book Hookup Amazon USAmazon UKBarnes and NobleiBooksKobo
My doorbell rang.
I looked at the clock and realized it was already 7:30.
So that meant it was Beckett on the other side of the door.
I looked down at my half-naked body.
And then I started freaking out.
“I’ll be right there!” I yelled.
Should I let him in?
But I was practically naked!
I couldn’t let him see me like this!
Maybe I should own it. Shake my hips and let him get a look at the goods.
Like that would ever happen.
Crap, what was I going to wear?
I grabbed a pair of jeans from my floor and wiggled them on, not really paying attention to which ones they were.
I reached into my closet and pulled the closest shirt off the rack. I tied my hair into a ponytail and slipped on a comfortable pair of ballet flats.
I hoped Beckett hadn’t planned on five-star dining because I was dressed more for a McDonalds milkshake before hanging with the bowling league.
“Sorry,” I said, out of breath, opening the door and letting Beckett inside.
“I was starting to think I needed to break in and make sure you hadn’t gotten stuck in the toilet or something.” Beckett looked damn near perfect in a dark pair of jeans and button-up blue shirt the same color as his eyes.
He had even gotten a haircut. Way to make me feel like a total underachiever in the getting ready department, buddy.
“Looks like you cut yourself,” I said, indicating the piece of toilet paper stuck to his chin.
“Fuck. I forgot about that,” he muttered, pulling it off, looking embarrassed.
“You should have left it there. It’s cute,” I teased, putting on my black wool coat.
“You ready?” he asked.
“As I’ll ever be.” I gave him a wide smile and he laughed.
“I’m not taking you to your death by firing squad. You could act a bit more excited.”
I jumped up and down, clapping my hands together. “OMG, Beck! I can’t wait!” I gasped.
“Is that better?” I asked, closing my apartment door behind me and locking it.
“Much.” Beckett leaned down and I swear he was checking out my ass.
“Excuse me, but what in the hell are you doing?” I demanded.
“Are you aware that the Cheshire cat is on your right butt cheek?”
I craned my body to get a look at what he was talking about. And sure enough, there was a bright purple patch with the damn Cheshire cat on my derriere.
“I must have picked up the wrong jeans,” I groaned. These were my hanging-out-doing-laundry jeans. Not meant to be seen by anyone but myself and the cat.
“I was in a rush. I couldn’t figure out what to wear. It was stressful,” I tried to explain, pulling my coat down over my feline-covered bum.
“The last thing I want is to stress you out, Cor-Cor.”
I smacked his arm. “I thought I warned you about using that damn nickname,” I threatened.
“I show up with toilet paper stuck to my face and you have a cat on your butt. I think we make a pretty awesome pair,” Beckett snickered, unlocking his car.
A beautifully touching and heartfelt book about surviving loss courageously, living life completely and embracing love absolutely.
“We had always been a pair of battling forces. Beckett wanting only to live and me… well I had been simply waiting to die.”
Corin Thomson has her days numbered or so she believes. After losing her parents in quick succession at a young age, she has existed the last eight years of her life dominated by her fear of dying. Petrified that any small ache or pain will lead to a life threatening illness. But after a man with a soothing voice and firsthand knowledge of death helps her through a panic attack on an icy sidewalk her life starts to take on a new perspective with whole a lot of hope.
“We’ve made it official, you now. You can’t get rid of me now. We’ve graduated to cutesy nicknames.”
After his brush with death from coronary arrest, Beckett Kingsley’s life will never be the same. But he won’t let his anger at the unfairness of having a defective heart stop him from taking advantage of the life he has.
“I was scared shitless of dying. So I did the only thing I could go. Learn how to live all over again.”
Adjusting to his new circumstances includes trying to make the prickly Corin laugh even when it seems she’s incapable of it. Can he help her get over her fears before their time is up?
“I’ve lost so many people, Beck. You scare me. I don’t look at you as the guy who could die. I look at you as the guy who could devastate me.”
This story is laden with feelings that gave me heart palpitations in every page from start to finish. The overall poignancy is laced with charming and snarky humor between Corin and Beck that made me laugh, and swoon worthy moments that made me wish their story would never end.
“Slowly, ever so slowly, I felt it. His mouth on mine. It was warm and dry and everything it should be. Perfect. Beckett let out a sigh. Straight from his heart to mine, and my entire body went liquid as I opened my lips to let him in. Letting him inside where he belonged. Where he would stay.”
There were also the times where I felt the oppressive fear from Corin’s panic attacks and the depression that threatened to take over Beck’s positive outlook on life, which he constantly tamped down.
“Being scared is never an excuse to hide. You should wake up every morning thankful you have another day to enjoy.”
Corin’s almost complete lack of social skills, her internal ramblings, her abrasiveness and snark caused me many smiles and laugh out loud moments. I loved how much she made Beck smile, and like him, I was charmed by her total lack of filter.
“I wasn’t thinking about my body that had failed me. I wasn’t thinking about how I couldn’t play soccer or go jogging. I was laughing my ass off because of a girl who made me forget about all the bad stuff. She made living easy.”
“And you said there wouldn’t be any dirty Ghost stuff. You lied, Corin!”
At another point in Beck’s life, I don’t know if I would have fallen so hard for him just like he probably wouldn’t have noticed Corin before. But his heart attack didn’t just chance his lifestyle, it completely changed his perspective and I just adored how sweet, caring, patient, positive and encouraging he was.
“There’s nothing scary in realizing who you want to be with. It’s exciting. Exhilarating… That’s what you make me feel, Coring. Exhilarated.”
Corin and Beck’s banter was fun, their connection deep and the romance was lovely. I couldn’t stop highlighting melting in puddles of goo. And then the ending came and I just couldn’t stop the tears from falling.
“Stop thinking about what could happen later and focus on what’s happening here. Now. With me.”
I ran my thumbs along the curves of her cheeks. “Laugh with me.” I kissed the side of her neck. “Dance with me… Smile with me…. Love with me.”
I ran my hands down her arms and laced my fingers through hers… I gripped her hands tightly, holding her. I wanted her to hear me. To listen. And I swallowed her tears. One at a time. “Live with me.”
I just loved this beautifully written story. Butterfly Dreams is a gripping, uplifting standalone contemporary romance novel told from both points of view that I recommend to all romance enthusiasts that enjoy character driven stories full with emotional depth and authenticiy.
The New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of Contemporary and Paranormal
romance including The Find You in the Dark and Bad Rep series as well as the
upcoming stand alone romance, Reclaiming the Sand, and a dark new adult series
for Gallery Books.
A. Meredith spent ten years as a counselor for at risk teens and children. First
working at a Domestic Violence/Sexual Assault program and then later a program
for children with severe emotional and mental health issues. Her former clients
and their stories continue to influence every aspect of her writing.
When not writing (or being tortured with all manner of beauty products at the hand of
her very imaginative and extremely girly daughter), she is eating chocolate,
watching reality television that could rot your brain and reading a smutty
novel or two.
A. Meredith is represented by Michelle Johnson with the Inklings Literary Agency.