It’s raw, gritty and full of angst but it’s also heart achingly sweet, full of hope and swoony with an incredibly caring and forgiving heroine and the almost hopelessly broken rock star she can’t not love. My heart beat faster every time these two where in each other’s orbits and I found myself constantly cheering for them to find their happy redemption.
“Not even a lot. I’m messed up on a level nothing will ever fix… I’ll never be someone who deserves you… but I need you.”
Kathleen “Kit” Devigny isn’t so sure that it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Because even if they had never even kissed, she fell in love with rock star Noah St. John and after two years the pain and humiliation he caused her still feels as fresh as the night he orchestrated to break her heart and ruin their friendship.
“I don’t expect you to forgive me, but please don’t shut me out… I can’t breathe knowing you hate me.”
Noah’s childhood trauma haunts him day and night and not even a revolving door of one-night-stands is enough to chase the demons away for more than a couple of hours. His ugliness and nightmares are things he refuses to share with anyone, much less the one woman that means everything to him. Rather than revealing his secret and have her see him as less than and pity he chose to push her away.
After crushing their precious friendship, the media circus has given Noah an opportunity to redeem himself in a small measure and help Kit get the role of a lifetime. When they’re christened as NoKatt and couple of the year, Noah volunteers to pretend to be her loving boyfriend. Will it be acting on either part when the connection between them is painfully intense, hazardously real, but promisingly beautiful none the less? Can he regain what he so carelessly crushed? Can Kit accept him even knowing he can’t give her everything?
“He didn’t deserve her, would never deserve her, but for this short window of time, he could pretend and live an impossible dream.”
It’s difficult to write a review for a book like this where I love everything about it. The writing, the emotion, the characters and plot which had me flipping pages but at the same time savoring each word. I’ll start with the incredible heroine.
I just adored Kit. Everything about her screamed beautiful person from the inside out. She was a completely down to earth woman, never letting her parents’ fame and fortune bloat her ego. She didn’t even use it to help her career. Besides that, she’s a caring, compassionate and forgiving person who despite all the hurt she’d suffered at the hands of Noah, she still didn’t give up on him because for her, nothing was more important than friends and family.
It was admirable that while giving him a second chance she respected herself by not allowing him to treat her as a doormat. She was patient and cautious in helping him piece back together his tormented soul. Even though I wanted them to get to a blissfully happy faster, it made sense for them to go slowly and carefully.
“Day or night, rain or shine, I’ll be there for you… Just be my friend.” Laugh again with him, remind him that life wasn’t only nightmares and pain, make him feel as if he could be a better man if he tried hard enough. “Don’t give up on me.”
My heart completely broke for Noah. From his self-loathing, the guilt he carried knowing he had mistreated the rare and beautiful friendship between him and Kit, to how much he suffered because he truly loved her but wouldn’t allow himself to have her because he was convinced he was undeserving and would taint her with his ugliness. But what made me love this complex man was his resolution to devote himself to her, even if he could only give part of himself to her.
“Be with me… I can’t be what you need,” he whispered against the side of her head. “But be with me anyway.”
I loved all the sweet moments between them, all their great banter and then the “romantic bulsh!t”. It was also great having the gang back, and I especially liked how they closed ranks to help each other.
This is one of the most painfully sweet love stories I’ve ever read. Even though it was predictable and I pretty much suspected what horrors were troubling Noah, the beauty was in the journey. All those painful, heartbreaking moments intertwined with incredibly sweet tenderness made me turn page after page wanting and hoping for this couple to find their happy ever after, loving how a shattered life could find redemption.
This book is book #3 in the Rock Kiss series by Nalini Singh who writes in an almost lyrical cadence that makes me want to read every single word and keeps me coming back for more after every book. It is told from both points of view. Is has interconnecting characters from the previous books but can be read as a standalone. It does not have a cliffhanger and does have a happy ending.
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* I was given an ARC of this book courtesy of the author via NetGalley. The excerpts are from that copy. *